WHAT IF?

what if? this world does not need money? that we live to..... acctually lived!! just then i was taking a "PUBLIC" taxi, alongside is his child, asking to buy something. Apparently his father ignored him, and it just remind me when i was a child rewarded with money or when i'm sick some new toys or stuff just magically "speeds" up my recovery..... Has this world turn into (realized or not) into a materialistic world.... one where we've lost the essence of our living here? last night there is a show on discovery chaneel (thank god for blessing of education channel which most young people these day or at least here in Batam just don't seem to have an interest in or even give a shit about it) about the origin of the UNIVERSE!!! how at first scientist "predicted" that the universe is pitch black, and then light is first created, than atom begins to emerge and so on. humans or even early live does not exist until all of nature's element is completed. that is when it struck me... what is the purpose of our existence? are we really alone with the universe is still expanding? and trillion of stars out there? right now as this article is written this cyber cafe is filled with people, good news you'd think? that people are actually using computer and are benefitting from its duo core pentium 4 multimedia extension hyper threading 2,4 GHz computing power.... You're "DEAD WRONG" there using it to play GAMES, Friendster, Chatting, Downloading porn. Is this actually called DEVELOPMENT?

All in all, i could talk about this all night, i just wished i could lived in a place where i can produce everything i need, but than live would be just plain BORING. So... what now? well better find a job soon... cause i hate having thought like this... useless, just renders me into more and more confussion and hatred (something i really don't need right now)